Open skies

Clouds are mile markers

Breezes are smiles on the wing

Freedom soars above me

Below nothing 


Ancient ground

Never knew treetop view

New sights and places beacons

Cutting through nights mist

Darkness parts



Johnny Toxin Football

Full disclosure.. I’m one of the lost tribe of Cleveland Browns fans.  Somehow, fittingly, we can explain why Charlie Brown (coincidence,  I’m sure) let’s Sally his  football for the field goal attempt that never happens.


Photo Credit : Charles Schultz via Wikia

But wait it gets better!   It’s a switch-a-roo…

Photo Credit : Charles Schultz via Wikia

Violet?  Who the hell is violet?  We have a perception problem here.   The source of Charlie Brown’s issues of trust run deep.  We like to have neat, clean, simple answers.  Our minds will gladly create these for us.  It’s a survival tactic.

Back to the story at hand.  Poor little rich kid with NFL dream job that people would kill for (even on bad team).  Alcohol is a powerful drug.   Fame and other drugs may play a role here as well (stories with allegations have been published for two years in Cleveland).  There may be one or two of us who found our share of interesting experiences or all the way to legal trouble because of these things.   But killing a career with it?

The player’s name is Johnny (Football) Manziel.  He was a Heiseman Award winner (best college athlete).  Drafted in first round (highly paid, expected to be really good).  He had a city, and a lot of the country hoping for good things.  We build our foundation on quick sand however.  

There have only been eighteen times that there were questions of his drinking, possible drug use, security sent to his residence to find him, police reports involving him, episodes of lying to his team about his whereabouts/missing team activities, or self postings is drunk incoherent ramblings.   Model citizen!  I was 23, once.   I made 24 working and drinking full time.  My father never said in an interview “without help, we’re concerned he won’t make his next birthday.”

The silver spoon was gold plated.  The NFL football teams offer the best of the best help.  These are million dollar thoroughbreds to their owners. 

The real problem to his situation must be a great deal of self doubt.   He is a headline story due to beating up his ex girl friend.  Of course, like a “real man” he threatened to kill both of them, then left.   He was seen nearby the same woman’s had against a window while driving in October.   But the explanation of he was trying to keep her from jumping out of the car worked.   He was driving about 90mph using the shoulder of the highway.  Knocking someone unconscious probably sides keep them in the car (fairness, he didn’t accomplish that part).  By the way,  his supporters blame the girl.   She must be a gold digger to do this.  She was smart enough not to be in pictures of the partying.

It would be a sad story of great potential going bad.  It could be a blazing star burning out too soon.   The pressure of it all made him a bad person……

Ah, he is a bad person.   He has a history as a bad person.   He continues to tell you how he will get better and learn from this.   He’s sorry for the whole thing.   It’s a mistake.   He’s never had to lose anything.   Now he well lose it all.  Hopefully,  charges are filed and stick.   He earned this.

In short,  relationships are about lifting each other up.   Not tearing each other down.  Hurting others to make yourself feel better never works.   Blaming drugs and alcohol is like blaming others.   It’s not going to change anything.